I can’t bring myself to use a silly and random title, here, and that’s because this is not a matter I want anyone to make light of.
First and foremost, I am sorry. I am sorry for all of the times I said that epilepsy and diabetes are nothing. I am sorry for every time I claimed that they were just a day in the life of a person; a struggle like any other. I am sorry for not realizing that what I have is not the same as everyone else.
To anyone who is confused, I have epilepsy and Type 1 diabetes. That means that I’m prone to seizures and that my pancreas is lazy. I have had the former for about nine years, and the latter for going on two.
I have always just dealt with it. It brought me down sometimes, but it didn’t really get in the way of my life. That’s what medicine is for. I could take care of myself, and though it was a little harder than most people, I led a (nearly) normal life; save for a few limitations here and there.
I joined these diabetes and epilepsy support groups online. For diabetes, I was really uneducated about it. I knew very, very little, because I was diagnosed only a short time ago.
And after I joined, I discovered that my life is absolutely perfect compared to many others with these disorders. There are people in the hospital every other day, people falling down in public and ending up with stitches on various body parts, people who blood sugars rock out of control despite healthy eating and correct insulin dosage, people who have thirty-minute fits and much more.
Me? I can’t wear shoes sometimes and have to avoid carbs.
Don’t take this the wrong way. My life is by no means easy, and having both is kind of a struggle sometimes, but it’s not more than I can chew.
For those of you out there who are having difficulty even living day to day, I hope that one day, you will be able to take it as lightly as I do.
I try not to, I swear, but seizures are my personal exercise. How could I ever do without those night time harlem shakes?