There are moments in life in which we are forced to make decisions based on what we want versus what is good for us. I am not talking about the age-old, banal cliche that challenges mediocrity and bad choices in a considerably weak statement of the obvious.
“Sometimes you have to choose between what is right and what is easy.”
No shit, Sherlock.
No, what I am talking about is the extremely thin line between fear of consequence and actual pain.It may seem that I have just created an innovative way to say the exact same thing, but bear with me.
Neither fear of consequence nor acceptance of pain is easy. There is no simplicity in two choices that can force you into an astronomically vile pit of bitter nothing that you will have to drag your unwieldily self out of with an excessive amount of effort.
We both know you aren’t quite that muscular.
The reality of the situation is that death is not a choice. Ultimatums come in many different, sometimes inconceivable, forms. What will hurt the most? What will be the hardest to recover from? And what in a theoretical god’s name do you do if the resulting pain of both is equal?
And what happens when you have to choose between relief of your own pain and the incineration of someone else’s? Who do you love more? There is no right answer; just guilt and shame. It isn’t at all fair to claim that saving yourself over someone else is an act of evil. There is no law in the universe that says that, in order to be good, heroic, upstanding, you must sacrifice yourself for the sake of others–no matter the intensity of your love or how great they are in number.
Hero (noun): A person who is admired for their courage, outstanding achievements, or noble qualities.
-The Oxford English Dictionary
But our society has skewed this definition and created the notion that the opposite of this is egocentric, perhaps even narcissistic; But to stand down from nobility is not a selfish act. It is a decision to simply be.
But to come full circle to my original point, I have this to say: when you come to pick your poison, sometimes the best thing to do is close your eyes, pull your decision out of a hat and take a leap of faith.