Today, my boss brought me into her office just to talk. Somewhere along the lines of the conversation, she said that, when I’m quiet, I have facial expressions that make me seem angry.
Insert floored dropped jaw image here.
I literally never, in my life, had anyone say that to me. If anything, I’m yelled at for making too many jokes and not being serious enough.
If my facial expressions seem angry, it could be because I have a short attention-span, and we sit and look at powerpoints for 3-4 hours at once. I can’t stay with you for that long. One hour in, and I’m gone until you send us packing.
Which is a pity, because I know that the presentations are excellent.
I’m not alone in that, but I probably am the only one who zones out completely for hours at a time, just thinking about the stories I want to get home and finish.
Because seriously, living in a fictional world beats the fuck out of the real one.
But maybe they do have a point. Not all the tales I think up in my head are pleasant. Most of them are pretty damn dreary. I’d need pharmaceutical help if I was smiling while I was dreaming up a scenario very reminiscent of a scene from Passion of the Christ.
Okay, not Passion of the Christ, but on a scale of one to terrifying, I’m probably swimming somewhere in the realm of a chainsaw massacre. Just not in Texas.
Connecticut. Yeah. In Connecticut.
The other problem she brought to my attention is that I tend to say things that make it seem like I’m lazy and unwilling to work.
I do say things of that nature, but it’s always in jest.
Connecticut doesn’t seem to tolerate jokes or humorous sarcasm. A piece of me died when I realized that, because humor is literally the only coping mechanism I have against depression and anxiety.
I don’t at all mind criticism, but this was so far out of left field. I don’t know how to fix something I didn’t know was broken.
Time to get to the chopper. This world ain’t big enough for all of us, hombre. I’ll make you an offer you can’t refuse. Funny racist Arabic phrase. Everybody start Kung Fu Fighting. Lemme just cause two World Wars.
I have a right to bear arms.